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This post is based on an original article by Viktoria Ilyina, a Certified Dance Therapist & Integrative Psychologist with over five years of clinical practice who is also an Advisor to @nicolelana.com. I've translated, adapted, and expanded upon her insightful ideas to bring them to you in English.
Shadow Work: Why is true freedom so elusive?
We all crave the freedom to be ourselves. It is a deep, powerful desire, driving us to scour books, attend workshops, and dive into countless "spiritual practices." But have you noticed a pattern? You might glimpse that liberation, feel a momentary high, and then it slips away.
Why is true freedom so elusive? Why do we often feel like we're just playing a predetermined role, like characters in a reality we didn't choose?
The blunt truth? Acquiring knowledge alone is not enough.
Mere knowledge, surface-level self-help, or even the abstract conceptualization of "enlightenment" isn't enough. To truly break free and live authentically, you must tap into the profound power of your feelings, often through embodied practices like dance therapy and somatic practices.
You can read every book, listen to every guru, but without genuine integration and practice, you will remain stuck (I second this as the translator).
This is not just theory; I've seen it in my own life and with my highly intelligent, self-aware clients. We all hit this wall, trapped in cycles that seem beyond our control.
The Illusion of Learning: Why We Stay Stuck
We consume vast amounts of information today. But how much of it actually sticks? How much do we truly digest and internalize? Very little.
Think about it: You finish a self-discovery book, feeling inspired. Days later, that familiar disappointment creeps in. Another "spiritual practice" offers a momentary high, then vanishes.
That firm decision to start a new life? It crumbles.
I know this despair intimately—the realization you're still searching, still reaching for something just out of grasp.
This constant striving, without inner integration, keeps us from embodying our authentic selves and thus, true freedom. It keeps us in a loop, feeling like passive observers in our own lives, rather than active participants with real choices.
Your "Negative" Experiences Are Gateway to Shadow Work
What if I told you that even your most painful, hidden experiences are crucial to finding yourself, your freedom, and your ability to choose?
This is where shadow work comes in. It’s about bringing the unconscious, repressed parts of yourself—your "shadow"—into conscious awareness.
These are the parts we deny, judge, or try to hide, believing they are "not us." They're the emotions, memories, or even positive traits we've pushed away.
Take despair, for example. If I acknowledge it, if I simply let it exist within my mental space, it transforms. It becomes vital self-knowledge. I felt it in every fiber of my being; it's now a part of me.
This is true acceptance.
I no longer fight or deny difficult feelings—the parts of myself I've pushed away or judged. Instead, I move forward with them, and they actually help me.
If I don't claim these shadow aspects, they do NOT disappear. They linger like a shadow, holding me back, creating unconscious blocks and self-sabotaging patterns.
When the shadow operates unconsciously, it makes choices for you, pulling the strings in your reality (without your conscious consent).
Embracing your shadow is how you reclaim the energy and authenticity locked away, gaining conscious control over your responses and paving the way for genuine self-freedom and real choice within your experience.
It does not matter if an experience is “good” or “bad,” if a trait is "desirable" or "undesirable." Every single one is a puzzle piece in your life.
You have two choices: claim your shadow (integrate it) or push it away (repress it).
The paradox? Even "negative" experiences—the very core of shadow work—become positive on your path to wholeness if you embrace and learn from them.
They weave together fragmented parts of yourself into a coherent whole.
This integration of your shadow is key to becoming truly authentic and free. It's the brave act of meeting your full self that liberates you from internal conflict, allowing you to rewrite your script.
The Knowledge Trap: Why Your Intellect Alone Can’t Master Your Inner World
How do you turn information into genuine knowledge, especially when it comes to your shadow?
It is not enough to intellectually understand; you must actively engage and FEEL.
You must make it part of your experience. Simply reading is not enough; without truly living the information and feeling it in your body, it is just mental clutter. AND, this mental clutter creates a false sense of understanding, leading to pride and baseless self-assurance.
This is dangerous because it halts real learning, which only happens through exploring and integrating new experiences—including the uncomfortable aspects of your shadow.
This process of feeling allows you to assimilate the wisdom of your shadow, freeing you from its unconscious grip and expanding your range of conscious choices.
Imagine your personality and your self. When you truly integrate a new experience, particularly those from your shadow, you are essentially mixing them together, shaking things up, and renewing yourself.
Only this process creates real knowledge. And only then do you get closer to your true self, which is the path to being truly free and exercising genuine choice in your reality.
I can honestly say that endless reading did not lead me to a deep understanding of who I am. Sure, those books built a foundation, but the real leap came from within, through confronting and integrating my own hidden parts.
Reading is good, but the key is to integrate that new information. This is especially challenging with complex topics like "enlightenment" because they often bypass the uncomfortable work of facing your shadow (!!!).
Complex topics like “enlightenment” describe what you might feel, but it is not your experience; yours could be completely different.
Therefore, start by feeling your own basic sensations and exploring your own internal landscape; don't try to force something beyond your current grasp.
Embracing your immediate felt experience is the bedrock for all deeper self-discovery, freedom, and the conscious ability to choice.
Dance Therapy: Movement as a Path to Deep Feeling & Shadow Integration
Intellectual understanding and talk-based therapies can fall short for fully integrating emotions because our experiences, especially traumatic ones, are encoded in our nervous system, muscles, fascia, and even cellular memory.
Talk therapy primarily engages the prefrontal cortex – the thinking, logical part of the brain. While this can provide valuable insights and cognitive reframing, it often does not reach the deeper, more primitive parts of the brain where emotions and survival responses are stored.
So, how do we actually begin to feel and embrace these elusive parts of ourselves and our shadow?
One incredibly powerful and often overlooked method is Dance Movement Therapy (DMT), a recognized form of psychotherapy.
Unlike traditional talk therapy, which relies on linear thought and verbal articulation, DMT uses the body's innate wisdom. When we move freely, without judgment or predetermined steps, we begin to bypass the conscious mind's filters. This allows repressed emotions, forgotten memories, and those hidden aspects of our shadow to surface organically.
In other words, Dance Movement Therapy engages the body and nervous system directly to release stored tension, process emotions non-verbally, and integrate experiences that may not be accessible through language alone. Through expressive movement, your body can reveal truths your mind might not yet grasp, bringing the unconscious into conscious awareness.
Dance therapy is NOT:
Learning a dance routine
Ecstatic Dance
Dance therapy is about authentic self-expression. By allowing your body to move in response to internal sensations, you create a direct, unfiltered bridge to your subconscious. This kinesthetic pathway helps you to not only feel your emotions more deeply – whether they are joy, grief, anger, or fear – but also to engage with the energy of your shadow in a safe, contained space.
As you move, you might find yourself exploring uncomfortable feelings or patterns you've previously pushed away, giving them space to be acknowledged, processed, and ultimately integrated into your whole self.
To see how this looks in practice, here is a video of Viktoria embodying this process:
This embodied approach to self-discovery is precisely what helps you shift from being a passive observer to an active participant, truly reclaiming your choice by integrating your fragmented parts.
In Part 2 of this series, we'll dive deeper into the practical steps of integration, showing you how to harness the power of your sensations to truly free your authentic self and reclaim your choices in the simulation.
x
Lana & Viktoria
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